may 19, 2026 - 12:08am

i've mostly been hecc posting over on my tumblr, its easy for me to do so whilst im away from my desktop. my new job tasks suck, i dont enjoy this at all and i resent that i was refused a raise and given a whole new job. the whole department has had the rug pulled from under us, and we're still kept in the dark but more upcoming changes even though it fully affects us. we still could get laid off at any time.

i havnt quiet yet cause it pays a living wage (even tho its below standard for my skills and education) and i can generally do as i wish with my down-time. which i usually use to work on my small business or just watch youtube. i try to remember that and not get too bitter. it could be a lot worse. the bar is pretty low tho.

iive started a project with some other women in my city- a travelling journal! We each own a journal and we've customized it and did lots of crafts and writings in them. then- we mail them off to the next woman. they go through several hands before they come back to us! I cant wait to see the other journals, make my cotributions, and recieve mine back!

i also wanna try to make a zine, but im still figuring out what about. i think ill just write about how im trying to not rot inside... how im trying to stay soft and sane in this horrible time we are living in. its for my own sanity and fun, maybe ill leave a copy at my local gallery. people do that sometimes. the zines remind me of these websites if they were in printed form.

february 27, 2026 - 12:25pm

Some people got laid off from my workplace, now theres a ton of restructuring and I have new bosses and new tasks, it's so spooky and im super anxious

my new bosses are in another city, I'm anxious to learn all my new tasks and responsibilites- I like my job but I'm scared I wont like it anymore... And im sad that my old bosses got laid off- one has been there for 30 years and the other LOVES the job! They must be devistated... It makes my heart hurt to know that they are hurt and it makes me angry at the company.

just another reminder of how very disposable we are, one must always keep her resume and portfolio fresh- and her savings account stocked as well.

speaking of money- my car is at the shop getting $800 repairs. I'm so glad I had a comfy savings built up. $800 is never great but it's manageable right now and for that I am so very glad

february 21, 2026 - 11:25pm

I've been listening to the audiobook of 1984 again, its so.... jarring. I love it. I'm about halfway through. I'm intending to read many of the classic banned books, I've never read many of them such as Animal Farm. But, as for 1984- I'd forgotton that it inspired one of my favorite games; we happy few. It has me wanting to replay the game

today i went to the dentist, took my recyclables to the drop-off, stopped by a new asian market, had a burrito at a food truck, a coffee at a local place where i also did some drawing, came home to clean, and picked up my husband from work. It's been lovely, but its gone by too quickly... Soon I will have to make myself sleepy and go to bed. In the meantine- I'm deciding if I either want to play sims4 or hearttopia before bed.

february 21, 2026 - 12:20am

its curently 12:20 am and I have a dentist appointment in the morning.

today i worked on my website and art while my job was slow, as much as i love to complain about my workplace - theres a lot of little perks like that. My husband is back on a minecraft kick lol, he's playing with a friend on discord. My cat is sitting in my lap making me type poorly. I need to go to bed buuuut i really wanna be playing persona 5 or hearttopia